Jasper

2005-09-17T08:32:00.000+08:00

ok shall tag abt last few days b4 i go out again...hah gotta rush out later...
err thrus nth much..at home keep playin dota n dota n dota lolx...
at night conferencing..yea...den steph keep askin sheila abt her "learning to love" part of her nick
so amusing..especially the pregnant part lolx..dots...yea...
well..tt night after my sis pointed out tt i had not even smiled for the past few days..i realised tt i waz actually very moody lately...havent been gettin pissed off very easily..venting my frustration here n there..haiz...hope everyone understands me..i guess im juz depressed over my condition...shall juz pray n hope i will get well...which i will =)..yea hahax..weneva i pray i just feel this sense of comfort n calmness..kinda hard to explain..but i lyk the feeling =)...yea...

well friday morning see dr toh...nth much said yea...lately see most doctors they dun haf much to say to me..yea..coz itz lyk so ovbious la...chemotheraphy 1 hr haha...yea the nurses there were so surprised im there hahax..yea..den they were lyk "jasper is here! the black shirt one!"
hahax...yea den kidna asked to perform for the party on 3rd dec...i waz lyk "i try to form a small band to perform" lolx..im still tinking who to get hahax..they took the chemo drug i waz lyk wth itz RED? yuck..lyk blood la so sick...den yea one hour...druing tt one hour i waz really in agony...im lyk halfway between a state of concioussness and unconscioussness....in great discomfort...really hard to describe..im juz in terrible agony during tt one hour....after it waz over i juz vomited away.....vomited a lot....it waz really bad....i tink itz gona b the beggining of another torturous regime of chemotheraphy...really feel terrible...really hope i meet sum1 who understands all this pain n agony tt im going thru...hope i will meet sum1 who had experienced sth lyk it...so can really tok abt it...o well...later my dad brought me to chinatown makan...den smsing steph....den asking her where are they den come tell me off topic stuff lyk wad havent deice where to meet later -.-....got me pretty pissed off la...maybe coz im already super moody yea....den later call her again n again...5 times or so..nvr pick up la..i got realli pissed off la...haha at food junction saw chang hao n gang makan hahax...so cool...den yea i wandered arnd being pissed lolx...den steph called..wah in breadtalk...den sae wad i owe money..okay i shall TOLERATE haha....yea..im juz moody ttz y im pissed...there really isnt a reason to b pissed at all and i shod nt b pissed at all yea hahax...itz adnormal for me to b pissed....saw sheila wq n steph....wq had the reali toot toot hair hhahax..den wq enslaved me by askin me carry her super heavy plastic bag wif duno wad crap inside....den i went up yamaha look at guitars..den buy picks for juer lolx..gt 10 yellow ones...8 for her 2 for me...den the counter guy waz lyk WAH so many haha..i dun find ten alot actually haha...i lose alot of picks....the counter guy is very friendly la hahax...really jokes alot...lolx...yea..u dun find many suck nice ppl in guitar shops nowadays la...i in there halfway sheila steph wq n xh suddenly appeared behind me...den waz lyk looking for me..i tried to run away..den xh kinda "HI!!!"..shock me -.-......den outside chang hao walked past n called me i tink...i tink i nvr see or sth la..den wq enslaved me again..they went iinto some shops....lolx i stayed outside...felt kinda weird if i followed em duno y....maybe coz i only guy haha..pw oso got this mentality la...lolx...den they were lyk "u really lyk to stand outside hor? i waz lyk ya -.-"...den contribute money to buy juer a toy haha...very cute la...den saw the pig i got last time -.-"...lolx..okay now im kinda broke...took mrt to bishan meet pw...den on mrt passed letters haha...i apparently passed sheila both coz i cod not figure out which one waz the one tt im supposed to give lolx...went j8..kena stopped by this guy charity crap one...haha..i slipped past..n im lyk behind the guy sticking out my tongues at them n wadeva lolx....den he waz lyk "eh u join in la!" den pull me -.-" im lyk why meeeee T_T....den yea he juz tok tok wrote down out names den give us pen collect 2 bucks each -.-" wth...wth....wth....im super broke...den treated xh n wq to macdonalds la haha...took sprite...so bloated den realised shod haf took ice lemon tea.....saw jarvis wif frens..tok abit la...den wen i waz wif wq n xh apparently jarvis can see me la..den he giving me tt weird look...im sure hes gona tell the other scouts some weird things la lolx..den went up n up to popular...saw sheila n steph below -.-"....den later met pw in popular..walk into music shop awhile...den popular again..waz surprised tt sheila at the parenting section lolx..considering tt "pregnant" thing lolx...den sheck out baby names...dots..im a country boy -.-" i kinda agree la hahax..den aaron's one total opposite of him lolx..den pw one i 4got liao...den they went federick the great lolx...den sheila waz lyk jumping looking for pw den she waz lyk "oops shod not do tt" hahax....den heard dem toking abt wad saw celine lolx...but i nvr see celine -.-....den yea walk walk...they went into tt shop..den pw n i stoning..watch initial d thing lolx..den sheila come call my name so loud from opposite la -.-...went in haha..toking abt diz n tt..den my dad call -.-"...den gtg la hahax..got on car den juer sms me...sms lor..den yea..at home shower go sentosa..yea the golf club n wish fooundation dinner..the president n first lady came meet the wis child..n im one of them..shook his hand wheee!....den during the dinner hmm so so la..got two caucasians sitting beside me...yea they were really nice to tok to =)..caucasians r normally very outgoing n kinda n frenly =) which i lyk..yea..talked alot abt diff tings..apparently im featured on the front page of the newsletter...and they were talking abt how i look in the picture haha..den later she asked if i shook the president's hand...and whether i wod lyk to take a pic i sae yeah definitely!...haha..who knows...later she requested for it and i went up..shook his hand..even had a short chat =)..yea....itz so cool haha...yea =)...den later theres the auctions prize giving and lucky draws..which is super amusing lolx...yea after whole ting go home hahax..yea..so tired..played dota.....slept halfway felt suepr sick...woke up n ate sth yea..o well..haiz...ttz abt it..later gona meet bryan yea =) shall blog again tonite...

2005-09-13T20:37:00.000+08:00

okay today dam tired ahax....
play dota again...experimenting wif medusa as usual..
hahax..yea...den go ct scan.wait super long...den tt nurse who alwaes poke me come n watch hahax...diao...den see doc oso super long...
deden took blood for culture n test -.-"
n came home la hahax...so tired..

2005-09-12T21:30:00.000+08:00

bleh..wana blog haha..but now headache until cant concentrate........yea..very bad la.......yea..not feeling well for whole day.......

2005-09-11T20:33:00.000+08:00

hmm..last nite went for e miracle service at tampines yea...
haha convinced my parents to go wif me....yea....
while praying felt something strange haha.....
den yea..left the place in a happy n hopeful mood =D

diz morning wen to church...lent sean the 2 xbox controllers haha..
den bible study hmm...yea..later eat...den everyone trying to throw the cereal into their mouth hahax..den later talk alot stuffs....hmm..haha went to touch the electric bass guitar string..wah tio shock hahax....yea later service hmm...abt spreading the gospel...yea pw kinda malu himself wen playin on the piano -.-....den later saw charlie hahx..he waz lyk hugging me -.-"....lolx...yea..den go hot spot makan..den zx wq n xh disappear hahax...went to play lan wif issac aaron n amos..hahax...play cs diz time..awp map i win lyk siao hahax....yea den later i so jia lat hahax..coz smsing my fren wad hahax....yea
later went back to church..wif aaron haha..suaning wq >.<....den she got so pissed..lolx...
den later go buy ice cream..went back..chat wif aaron n amos..went up again...den later my dad bring me n aaron back hahax =P

yea juz now tio fever hahax....so headache xD...

2005-09-09T23:27:00.000+08:00

yea diz morning see doc....
wait so long....
haiz..things looking bad la...
maybe i need chemo again...
spoke to a counsellor...told him how i really felt..
and cried out yea...feel much better after it =D..
den sms lor...later meet xinhui huilun n dora at lido...
suaned huilun abit hahax...
watched the longest yard...hahax..
super funny la the show...
den later went to bugis...den i go bras basah
go guitar workshop again haha..
yea usual...den buy d addario strings..wah 5.50 per pack haha...buy two XD...
yay so happy..my parents agreed to follow me to the miracle service tml =D
really hope tt a miracle will happen...yea....i tink only a miracle can save me now yea...
im really in fear...but the counsellor already told me i shod haf more hope den fear =D...
yea..juz pray...yea..hope tt i will get well =D....
yea....im just so in fear...i feel lyk crying out all the time...itz so hard..
itz juz so hard on me....yea...but everyting happens for a reason =D...yea..
yea...gona sleep liao..cya ppl

2005-09-09T10:06:00.000+08:00

NOTE TO WEIQIAN: I SHALL NOT START MY POST WIF "NTH MUCH TODAY HAHAX"

lolx..yea gona see doctor....ytd do nth lor..blood test...go parkway collect specs....
go home stone...play dota lorx...gona see doctor later..so scared >.<

2005-09-07T22:34:00.001+08:00

okay today nth much la..stuck at home haha..
juz sms frens lor talk on fone wif some ppl..
yea..den quite boring la today basically...
den chat online..play dota...yea...den got very bad headache
haiz...wad on earth is going on...at firz breathing difficulties...
now headache..haiz tml blood test....hope for the best..
heh anyway im gona get my new specs tml =D....so excited hahax...
yea...hope for the best la...

2005-09-07T22:34:00.000+08:00

2005-09-06T23:09:00.000+08:00

today morning....nth much la...
chat online crapped....
$^#$&%$#@&.....
later went bras basah wif adnrew get his guitar.make me take taxi make me broke.....
den later lunch.......
eurghz...........dun wana blog haiz..
im ****ing frustrated............
duno y.........haiz......

2005-09-05T22:06:00.000+08:00

o well...today woke up....sms my fren -.-"...
den sms throughout the day haha...
brought my guitar to guitar workshop haha...
checking it out on the amps...hmm...
the kustom amp iz good..i love itz overdrive hahax...
230..heh..GAS struck me liao....
bryan waz sanding the guitar bodies...
waz toking on the phone to her..for lyk an hour? hahax...
den andrew came...
gona buy the aria guitar i tink....heh..150..cheap...
2nd hand la....but itz good la...okay later found got fret buzz...
den gotta make adjustments....
den tml or day after andrew go collect again hahax..
went to swee lee..bought some picks hahax...
den later go macdonalds eat...
hahax..crapped alot la....
den andrew want me take my guitar let him see -.-"
den later went home hahax...
den still smsing my fren......
hahax juz now play dota...
wahh come play 6.14..i nvr play tt version b4 haha...
my stats jia lat...haha..but we 2 on 3 still win XD..
me n jin dao keep kena killed -.-"..
hahax..den still smsing her...den she gotta sleep liao hahax...

2005-09-04T20:09:00.000+08:00

okay 2dae woke up...breakfast...changed...go out..
msg zexin....wah they so slow hahax...dad drove to bishan to fetch them...
go here go there -.- so luan....den later she sae saw aaron on car hahax...
den later picked up steph n zexin..go church....den later my mom passed me my medicine n a purple water bottle to drink from..dan zexin waz lyk -.-" dots....
hahax den reached church...lift no space -.-...took stairs....
den went upstairs...den later go group...hmm tok abt blessings....den muz write good qualities of the ppl hahax...den lionel suaning again -.- sae wad moon n stars got alot write abt each other -.-
den sermon....den sat wif lionel n haoquan........den later go down...wait till rain over....
go to breko in the rain -.-...to eat...haha down there had the potato ting lor...den alot crapping...
den they folding hearts wif straws -.-.......
later everybody seperate haha..so called...den go bras basah...go guitar workshop..met bryan..and the shopkeeper haha..hes so nice...tried out a couple of guitars bleh..den talked lor...den was smsing zexin -.-........
den yea lidatl...blah blah den go home liao hahax..

2005-09-03T13:09:00.000+08:00

haha shall make a quick post haha..
well yytd seen doc la..sure most of ya noe how it went la haiz..
quite bad...den started me on a new medicine...firz course free..
if can work den order...14 pills for 3 thousand bucks...so ex lor..haiz...
den yea at home stone...hahax...chat online lor...play abit guitar...
sms juer.....den yea later chat online....sheila came online awhile....
den off haha...chat awhile off....den go dinner haha....den stoning..
she msg me..den sms for quite awhile haha..den call her hse fone to tok la >.<...
tok msotly crap la..coz both of us r bored XD....den sean started doing crazy tings on msn -.-"...very dots stuff.....sean really fail spelling lor haha....
den wah chat lyk from 8.30 to 10?.....den she gotta sleep haha..den put down lor...later play dota wif jeremy...haha..2 v 4 bots......wah keep killing them lyk siao hahax....>.<
pro sia him hhahax....o well....diz morning woke up..den wah she already msg me >.<
den msg whole day lor hahax....den joanna apparently stole my number from her -.-"...
haha..later gona make specs.....yay!...haha

2005-09-02T16:25:00.000+08:00

What Cancer Cannot Do

Cancer is so limited-

It cannot cripple love

It cannot shatter hope

It cannot corrode faith

It cannot destroy peace

It cannot kill friendship

It cannot suppress memories

It cannot silence courage

It cannot invade the soul

It cannot steal eternal life

It cannot conquer the spirit.

2005-09-01T19:36:00.000+08:00

haha okay diz morning went for blood test...dots..
so pain la...so long nvr kena poked...den later go home..take medcine..chat awhile...
den go out..wah my dad so slow la..but lucky today i not late...coz everyone late hahax...apparently sheila n juer early...den sheila called hahax...den yea went down meet them..as usual all the suaning -.-"..haha juer threatened to whack me...den later steph samantha n her cousin came...den later saw suhartono..said hi to him hahax.. den later go bus stop meet xinhua...den later go starbucks...steph buy ting haha...we all make the place so congested XD...go take lift....den almost full...door almost close b4 i got in..there waz screaming...den inside lift suanage again -.-"...go out..den kena suaned again -.-"..den bought tickets..make me queue up..wan me pay all sumore...good la....bought tickets....bought drinks...den juer wan me treat -.-"....den later again suanage -.-"...dots..went into the theatre...they made me sit wif her -.-"...den the movie so lame hahax..ther herbie car so cute la...n dots....den later it fell in love wif another yellow car..haha..so dots...the movie not bad la hahax...den juer super dots...keep singing along to the songs..den tok so much...den later hint hint to me -.-...err something happened hahax...after movie...went out..i go toilet...den came out saw everyone at one corner.....den xh n juer started giving me looks -.-"...dots..den no time go arcade hahax...everyone go down..went to carefour...den sheila n xh bought chocolates..den look at albums....den pointed out the ronin album -.-"...den juer sae i sick...den later xh waz lyk wondering if the silver ting can b peeled off...den later they sae wad no nid see....erm....itz juz very sick n dots...nvr knew ppl so dirty minded.....den saw some greeting cards...hahax...suanage..den later go mrt there..left alreadi...den i go andrews hse...haha..smsing sheila along the way..den later missed the bus to his place la...dots...hahax...den at his hse crapped lor...guitar....hahax....o well...den later came home hahax...haiz..felt tt the tumour has grown larger haiz....my mom waz toking abt wad i eat wrong tings haiz...tinknig abt it i alreadi wana breakdown...she still sae all diz stuff..haiz...hope she will stop..hope she understands tt im having a very hard time...juz wana enjoy life..who knows what will happen to me in time to come?...might as well enjoy my life as much as possible b4 i leave everyone...which of coz i hope won't happen..yea it won't happen =D....shall pray for tomorrow's meeting with the doctor..hopefully im getting better and not worse =D...hahax...now smsing XD...>.<

2005-08-31T18:16:00.000+08:00

okay today morning woke up...bathe...eat....play o2mania....go skool...haha..met miss koh...talked...apparently everyone going for walk..den hang arnd in skool...saw alot ppl hahax....den later chatted wif mr koh...mrs koh..wen arnd..saw mrs koh too..den went into src wif councillors hahax..den wanted go pool one hahax...den later go primary skool...saw pw....den reliased most of my teachers last time "extinct" liao..not teaching there anymore haha..o well...dden err...carn rmb which teacher haha...rmb me..but cant recognise me...tot i go plastic sugery or sth lolx...den later hangewd arnd....go home..take medicine..eat..
wanted to go play pool wif reuben they all..but later nvr pick up my call liao...den juer sms me...make me go tp -.-"....den go mos find them...den so dots..they reading books all diz..apparently they finished eating..den haha..suaned juer...call pw..den suan her hahax...she blush lyk dots....i go buy drink..den juer go take my fone play...sheila apparently kept my wallet n passed 10 bucks to steph -.-"...den i waz asking for my wallet back...steph waz lyk "y do u haf to suspect me or juer?"..dots....den realised itz sheila tt kept it..dots..den wad my money her money ting -.-"...suanage....den go library...juer took my fone take pics again....den i no fone..duno how to find them...dots...den met up..dots.den walk walk...go entertainment centre..on the way den reliased i lost 10 bucks..got it back from steph...den go there..i go arcade..they canot go in coz they in skool u...haha..den went in swensen find dem...den steph waz lyk wad i shod at least tell the staff i going in -.-....dots...den later eat ice cream...get suaning again...pw called haha..everyone psycho him....den juer accidentally poured salt on the table...hahax..dots..den tok alot crap..den she keep pouring salt into my cup of water -.-"...den i drink the water waz aww sick...den sheila passed me her sprite -.-"...den juer suan her la...dots..den sheila kicked her lolx..den later steph filled the feedback form..hahax..everyting bad XD...o well..i paid abit extra bud nvm..den later go back..tok alot...walk past some smoker den i go cough cough hahax...so dots...den later going off den i go one way sheila go another..den juer suan again -.-"..dots..den take bus ride home hahax...

2005-08-29T19:11:00.000+08:00

o well..diz morning guitar lessons hahax..
quite okay...den later willy called...ask abt go movie...
he came to my place....play awhile...
den go tp...on the bus saw john n zhonglin...
watched valiant...
the movie iz lame la..not very nice at all lor...
den later go cd rama.......den go macs eat.....
suddenly steph juer n sheila walked in...
sheila come boo me...scare me la...
alamak XD...later duno where they go
den later willy n i go library...
den go home hahx....
den waz smsing juer lor......
hahax..o well.....

2005-08-28T22:51:00.000+08:00

okay ...hmm..last nite went to kenneth's church..for tt youth mass thing...
hmm....a new experience for me...in a catholic church...
alot of things i did not understand den i asked him....
met marcus for the first time..haha..saw gabriel and nigel n john too...
haha had not seen them for really long hahx...
yea..the mass was quite interesting haha...
den later hanged out for awhile.....had ice-cream...
den met a few of kenneth's fren...haha say i shy ar..u DIE hahax..
den his parents fetched me home hahax..
den today woke up early....went to church...apparently they starting bible study...
den as usual..suanings frm aaron..den later go see erm..ppl singing the we believe song...wow..so nice...
continued wif bible study...hmmm...later eat...lionel questioned me -.-"..
talked abit here n there...haha..pw zapped wq n wq screamed his name hahax..
sianz...den sermon...got suanings frm pw aaron n evynn...dots...
den yup...later go makan..wah so many ppl lor....den wq kena suaned lyk crap haha..."dai yan jing de!" hahax..aaron so crap..suan me oso la...lionel oso...keep saying wad i shod haf initiative hahax...o well..
den my sis appeared beside me...den aaron push me to say bye to zexin la -.-"
dots...den go to weird place...weird tok...abt cancer..i sleep..msging zexin...
den later go novena fish n co eat...still msging zexin..den go home..still msging -.-...den realised msg so much hahax...o well..my bill wun burst so easily coz i got 1000 FREE SMS =P...hahax..o well..ttz all lor..at home chat online wif usual ppl la...

2005-08-26T22:56:00.000+08:00

haha today oso nth leh....guitar lesson...
hmm....nicholas lu coming tml
juz now play dota..wah kena trashed my kuok ming...
he pro sia..
haha..if bk use his wards den can win haha...
bleh...arghz...i MISS her so badly >.<...
hahax....=P

2005-08-26T09:43:00.000+08:00

this iz nuts...
sth's rong wif my computer fan..
itz humming lyk a bee -.-"...
but worse den a bee...
kick it oso no use XD....
later guitar lessons....
i wana sleeeeeeeep XD
haha...shall blog later today >.< =P

2005-08-25T21:00:00.000+08:00

hahax..o well..today quite boring oso..

steph isnt quite in good mood i guess..o well..

gona play dota haha...

last nite play wif aaron n nigel..

me against both of them...

i won lolx...

rocks...

gona play again XD

2005-08-24T21:23:00.000+08:00

hmm...another day haha...well....chatted online most of e time..

yea...nth much today..

well..mr lai came in the afternoon...

did some bible study =D...

yup...den later nth much..

chat online yup.......

bleh..even ppl i dint expect to noe abt wad happened oso knew abt it haha...

well nt ppl...juz one person lolx >.<

2005-08-24T12:04:00.000+08:00

bleh..haha..ytd andrew marcus nick lu n nigel came..

haha we mostly played fifa '03 la..(sori la i no money buy latest fifa) haha...

haha everyone tio trashing frm me XD...

den andrew play my guitar lor...

i play dota haha....diao...play until 45 min...

lolx 3 hits lidat kill one hero haha...

den monster kill XD..

wen the game ended got abt 45 kills...

o man...realli play wif them no kick...

haha..den later willy came oso...

he apparently has nth to do at home haha

den blar blar blar...

o well...

chat online as usual...

erm well..finally did sth i shod haf done a long time ago..

well..it turned out to b better than i expected =D haha

><

wheeeeeeeeee a new day....

haha

2005-08-23T01:52:00.000+08:00

haiz cant sleep...

now 2am....

something is bothering me...

i shod really do sth abt it....

2005-08-22T21:23:00.000+08:00

i really do not know wad to do...

shod i give up?

i tink not...

well....i tink xh juer...wq..steph...ur noe wad im toking abt..

well...i dun wana give up..

well...

2005-08-22T16:03:00.000+08:00

haha got my old board back up! yay

2005-08-22T15:36:00.000+08:00

haha changed tagboard....

old tagboard died a terrible death >.<

2005-08-21T19:08:00.000+08:00

okay diz morning woke up...

rushed breakfast n shower...

4got medicine...

den go church..went up wif liren...

lol..tok abt watching the maid as spending money to scare myself >.<

den went up juz nice gona haf group meeting...so went down..

aaron being crappy again lolx..

den sharing....

haha lionel tok abt his army stuff...

wah so no discipline lolx

den prayed...

later went up..den lionel crapping..

toking abt some conclusion...

esp the one abt y ppl choose to be homosexual when they arent born homo lolx..

coz pretty ladies go wif ugly guys...

ugly guys go wif pretty ladies and so on...

lolx...

den later sermon..

den later everyone went down..

den talked talked....

saw seth....lolx he so cute >.<

den sheila left...

haha i did sth..den xh waz lyk "hi pw!"

lolx so diao...den walk to sunshine plaza eat wanton mee..

haha we crapped so much there..

i waz lyk "how come i cant bully wq?"

den ernest bullying her..

said ernest shod write a book on how i can bully wq...

hahax..

keep on saying she drank 5 barcadis..lolx

den i said abt signing contract...so i bully her she get ice cream..

den later xh wanted to say sth abt wq lolx..

want me to continue..

haha den wq threatened back..

den later go parklane..den go HQ play dota...

haha xh n wq sticking to ernest..lolx...hmm..

den play abit lor...later went home lolx >.<

2005-08-20T20:36:00.000+08:00

okay morning woke up....

den saw a msg frm sheila..

waz sent to me at 2am -.-"

haha sms her lor...

den later decided call her to tok dots...

talked crap...

den heard lionel crapping..

haha...

later found out some stuffs lolx...

den went to church..haha..ppl singing lyk karaoke...

den xh waz at the back..

talked to her abt my condition n stuffs..

shes nice =D

den everyone trying to wake aaron up lolx..

he can sleep in many positions la...

den went to e controls played wif the volume lolx..hahax...so fun..

wq slept at a corner later..

wah so hard to wake her up...

den aaron made her lick the control -.-"...den i ate beehoon...

later wq slept at the front..haha..aaron made her eat pencil..

ok den walk walk..met steph...den go ps...

go starbucks..bought drinks...

den well..got to hear sth..hahax..

hahax..den later go mos wif lionel ernest n aaron...

den later xh sheila wq n steph came down...aaron waz toking abt how "cute" my hair iz -.-"

hes sarcastic la...

den later xh oso say my hair cute -.-"

dots..it curls naturally la..

den go up buy ticket...queue super long can...

den crapped alot...den some woman survey xh n wq abt movies lolx..

den everyone waz lyk pointing at me n lyk "there there interview him!"

dots..i noe i go movie alot la..bud no nid do this to me wad lolx..

den treated wq n xh abit la...i spent alot money today can....

walked around..in n out of yamaha..

xh n wq go hold my arms la....so awkward can...

xh waz lyk saying my arm so stiff....dots...

i feel awkard of coz become stiff wad...

or maybe juz my defensive mechanism *plays dead*

hahax...den talked abt realtionships la...wq n xh waz lyk whining la..

haha..wq iz crazy over HIM...and xh crazy over another HIM...

i tink...hahax...den i oso talked abt abt my past stuffs la...

den go buy drink buy popcorn...go watch the maid..

so dam freaky...

the firz part some woman scream very funny la..

den so freaky...eeeee..

the ghosts...den marrying the dead...eeeeeeee

wq covering herself...

den after movie walk walk...walked wif wq to church..on the way wq calling aaron to whine abt how bad the movie iz..

den walk walk duno where haha..under rain..wq got hood zai la..

den my dad fetch me home lolx..

coz aaron said itz not scary...

2005-08-20T00:13:00.000+08:00

arghz..i duno wads wrong wif me...

im going crazy...at diz rate im gona breakdown soon or sth..

i juz seem to haf low self esteem or sth...

i duno..

i just feel dam screwed...

i often feel left out...

arghz i duno y..

i tink i need a counsellor or sth..

i must not listen to them....maybe they do not know wad im going thru or wad i feel so ttz y they said those words to me...

i must not listen to them...

wad will happen to me in time to come?.....

will i ever be lyk everyone else?....

can i lead a normal life....

this bottled up feeling is realli killing me....

maybe i shod just go to sleep and leave all these feelings behind....

maybe i will wake up tml feeing better...well

2005-08-19T23:36:00.000+08:00

okay today morning really tired..dun feel lyk going guitar lesson

bud went anyway..haha...wah do so much barre chords...

can die hahax....

o well...

den later willy came...played guitar...

den later go bugis haha...we early...

wq decided to b late...

den waited...saw xh lolx...

she wants to b taller than me -.-"

den later aaron came haha

den we went up from wrong exit...

aaron crapping....

den later suddenly meet up wif wq...

wanted movie but scared later too late...so no lor

den wq n xh go shopping..aaron me n willy go arcade...

den play play...go up..and down to basement...

wq n xh eating -.-"...den later go to bookshop..crapped...

den willy left...

we walked n crapped arnd

den i bought metallica reload album...only to find out my sis buy liao -.-"...

dots..den later i treat aaron drink...

den we go church haha

go 5th floor..teach wq abit guitar...

played abit on drums....

den later go down..

tok to mr lai a lil....

den later they go find zx...

den go back church....

told wq tt maybe i shod admit sth..den wq waz lyk "tell everyone here la!" i waz lyk -.-" dots

steamboat haha....

ernest had his laptop...den all playin

den steamboat halfway xh zx n wq went up..haoquan me n ziqi eat lor..crapped haha...

den later went up..

den watch kingdom of heaven or wadeva lolx...

den haha i suddenly feel kinda depressing again....well...as usual...

den talked to wq abt how i feel..o well..maybe i felt better after...

den my dad brought me home...

arghz i cant stay over..

2005-08-17T11:50:00.001+08:00

haha last nite waz toking to sheila abt her calling me for me to suan her lolx

24hrs suaning hotline..hha

okay went esplanade met up wif dr tay...he waz wif his frens...

haha he told me the blood test very good..AFP dropped to 900+..

ttz gd news hahax..

went in watch dim sum dollies..

haha super funny la the play dots...

streaming to put stupid ppl together -.-"

den the merlion vomiting part lolx..

den later intermission haha..realised sheila seriously tried to call me -.-

den sms me say wana suan her nvr pick up -.-

dots i cant believe she called lor haha...

dots..

den went in watch 2nd half..

i lyk the indian part lolx

haha the sperm bank part super stupid..

den yup after the show dr tay sent me home hah >.<

2005-08-17T11:50:00.000+08:00

2005-08-16T18:39:00.000+08:00

lolx..okay..nth much today again

dr tay asked me out to watch a play...

hmm..interesting lolx....

going out soon.....

2005-08-15T12:22:00.000+08:00

haiz..changed my layout..

at least itz pink n black alrite..

yup..

nothing to say..haiz

2005-08-14T19:54:00.000+08:00

okay today morning mom woke me up eat medicine...

den cod not sleep...

read newspaper....

den showered n changed...

went off to church...

o well...saw abel n amost getting out from the car haha...

den later everybody there...

aaron commented abt my hair -.-....

den later everyone went into one of e rooms on lvl one...

den trying on air con...

den apparently lionel too short...

so used the feather duster haha...

had a review of the book of hosea....

haha wen everybody waz at the beggining of the book i had no idea wad waz going on...

coz at tt time i tink i wasnt arnd durin e bible studies or sth...

den during e part abt whether itz fair tt the non-believers were sent to hell or sth...

tt part lionel said sth den mr lai said lionel will juz take it as army training or sth lol

den later mr lai brought me to the office...den pass me the our daily bread book and the start right book...

but i already haf the our daily bread book so okay la hahx....

den went up to 5th floor..

talked to pw...

duno abt wad oso haha..

pw say his stomach ki siao liao....alwaes hungry haha

den pass sheila her letter...

den wq pass me letter...want me to fold her nxt letter -.-"

okay okay...

den later xh wq n sheila want me go toilet check if charlie was inside..

den i waz lyk..male or female toilet -.-"

ahax diao...

den sermon...hmm nth much..

only i tink im keep pissing wq off haha..

kena whacking..

den during sermon evynn aaron n amos play tricks on me -.-

den later juz played on e guitar...den ernest waz lyk "play sth!"

hahax dots...pw play piano...

xh n sheila both disturbing me n pw -.-" dots...

den later juz prayed wif ernest's group...

den later go find wq sheila n xh to eat....

i ate wanton mee..

den all of them eat hor fan...

keep saying itz so hot...

erm well..it sounded abit rong..eh herm

shall not emphasize haha...o well

den later soyabean milk...

haha i finished it so fast tt they were lyk "did u buy soyabean milk?"

of coz i did la haha..

den wq tok abt how fast i drink last time...lol

den wana teach wq guitar...bud 5th floor locked...

so no guitar haha...

canot find pw.......wanted find him one

den go to the room in 4th floor...

everyone crapped...wif sean showing me videos haha..

den i mimicked how sheila look lyk wen she stone at the computer...

so farnie haha..

den she kicked me again n again....

den they use my fone call lionel n pw haha...super diao...

so much noise..

den lionel came up..

wq wan ice cream treat...

so all go parklane haha....

at firz everyone downstairs..

den crapped lor....

den saw mr lai....

den later sean gave me his drink...

wq wana force me to finished the half finished drink tt she n xh drank..

den force me sit..

lucky i nvr drink...

tink haoquan drank it later..

den i kept fanning sheila's hair...tryin to make it fall off >.<

den she waz lyk..if fall off den duno wad...

went to parklane mall...

den haoquan toking abt xh wq n sheila...

sae xh n wq lyk guys lidat haha

den go suan wq..sayin she guy..den she uh huh uh huh lolx

so shes a guy afterall

haha..den treat wq to mcflurry -.-"

den i keep playin wif the coin...sheila n sean go home...

den walk to ps...

i keep saying wq lyk coin machine...put in money den can bully her haha..

coz i treat her sth den bully her..

den xh n wq called out to lionel to ask where is ziqi or sth...

den lionel looks pissed haha...walk so fast ps us...

den at ps pris apparently called out to me..

bud i duno until ernest tell me...

den tried call her haha..

den later go into ps..wq n xh pop out of nowhere..

so they trying b faster den us..

den go ticket booth there...

saw mr lai again haha...

o well....

later decide not to watch movie...

den wq xh n haoquan sitting n toking..

ernest n issac toking...

den everyone stone..

later wq n xh wana go food court den guys go yamaha....

den i lent wq my fone lor..since both of them no fone

den at yamaha check out drums n guitars...

den issac wana find bass strings bud so expensive haha..

den everyone at one spot chatting..shop assistant gave us look..

den lionel appeared wif a soft toy he got haha...

den we go arcade...wq n xh left...

den all play la haha..

lionel n ernest sabo us wen we play daytona o well..

den play here play there den i gtg liao haha..

so my dad fetch me lor XD....

go home haha

2005-08-13T22:44:00.000+08:00

o well..quick post haha...

well lately nth much happened...hmm..

well..yea nth much haha...

yea....feel lyk sth bothering me as usual -.-"

not too sure wad izit though haha..

o well..

2005-08-12T23:13:00.000+08:00

help me..im being suaned

2005-08-10T18:05:00.000+08:00

oaky today go see dr yap...

ok nth much haha..

juz my blood pressure low...tumour nvr grow..

den go bugis meet zx juer n steph...

juer say i look lyk monkey -.-"

den juz buy coffee shake..coz no time...

den go library...

read books...

hahax..

neck tired...

haha keep suaning juer....BLACK = ROTTEN BANANA!

den tell her go pw hse den can LOOK AT PW ALL SHE WANT!

she tried to suan me..bud unsucessful haha

den go bras basah i buy strings n peg winder..

den later go my place get sims 2 den dey go..

2005-08-08T19:19:00.000+08:00

today watched charlie n choc factory..not bad haha...

really funny >.<

err nth much..dun feel so well o boy....haiz...

well maybe tonight i sleep earlier i will feel better....

tink my dad gona get earlier appointment wif doctor....

sth tells me im in for another operation...

o well...

2005-08-08T10:00:00.000+08:00

okay i juz maluated myself...

wen i waz almost at the doorstep den i realised tt theres no lesson today -.-"

okay came home..ahhz..at least can rest la...

still feelnig very giddy >.<

2005-08-08T09:26:00.000+08:00

hahax..so much better today =)

but still feeling very giddy...itz really quite bad >.<

maybe later gona watch movie..

haha ok ok in response to zexin's request:

on saturday while queuing up i suddenly felt giddy..very unwell..

so i waz "ordered" to sit down..while zexin and weiqian block the sun for me...

rite...sun blockers....hahax...den yea drink free water...

they took pics of the bottle -.-"...

den in the stadium suddenly i thot i heard sum1 squirreling lyk weiqian lolx..

zexin waz lyk "another weiqian?"

lolx...

okay ttz for for the request haha....

well later going movie..bud got lessons firz..gtg >.<

2005-08-07T17:24:00.000+08:00

well duno..i feel kinda depressed...

lyk..itz my condition dun seem to be improving...

really scared...wad if im really gona lose this battle against cancer?

realli dun wana tink....den feel kinda lyk an outcast..

o well....lidat lor

maybe i can psycho myself be happi =D

well..i juz feel lyk im putting on a fake smile since day 1...

im juz trying to be mentally strong wen im not...

i really feel lyk breaking down n cry...

y does all this have to happen to me...

well i duno...

but all i noe iz that i will not give up...

i juz wana be cured of this disease..

i will not give up hope =D

i will continue to fight =D

hahax..maybe now feel kinda better >.<

well....juz lidat...i tink...

2005-08-07T16:46:00.000+08:00

haha okay..last nite too tired to blog..

lets start from...

----saturday----

morning guitar lesson....

den go home..go see doc...

den later spose go ps at 2.30 meet wq lionel n zx...

den my dad keep dragging...

late...wq pissed...

den go kallang directly instead...

den pris and others got front place haha...

den lionel waz lyk...wad r we doing here? hahaa...

walk abt...den seraphina called me..lionel answered..told me itz steph -.-"

den zx n wq waz lyk "ARE YOU STEPHANIE?"

apparently lionel is tinking too much abt stephanie...

den we went WHAT THE NIE!

lolx sound so rong...

den walk abt lor..bo liao here bo liao there..watch ppl play duno wad sport

kayak all these...

den tok alot crap..duno lionel say wad stars n moon -.-"

den talked abt him n charlie haha...

den i keep tinking i see ppl tt i noe

apparently they not there at all

something is rong wif me...

den lionel go liao..den in the queue..den they dun let ppl come up -.-"..

den wq n zx play wif my fone...

take pics again

den wq tell me not to let aaron see the pics -.-"

den i take pics of the sun...so nice...=D

okay suddenly i chest pain...

den feel so faint...

so scary lor..

den later go in...

haha everyone waiting enter the main area...

i waz tinking of climbing over the glass door or wadeva barrier..

den open

everyone chinog in..lucki i caught up...

den sat so front haha...

den aaron called...

he kinda late coz wif charlie den play lan

den end up they canot get in haha

the concert iz so so so nice =D

stand until tired haha

den jump jump XD...

it waz so COOL...

haha..

den went off..

waz lyk wad to do wad to do..

den after long time..

i juz follow em..

duno lobang whos car haha...

den drop at dhoby ghaut there...

pris n zx go home..

wq n i go take away macdonalds....

eat...den my dad pick us up...

den wq play wif my fone the messenger ting

den chat wif willy...

den chat wif haoquan..

haha...hq tot she at my place..

den he said alot of crap haha...

lyk wq so noisy...

i no comments..

den go home..slp....

den wq ask me set alarm..wake her up by calling her...

....today......

den woke up to alarm "i like to move it move it...."

den call wq..bud she woke up....waste my efforts hahax..

den blar blar blar...go shower wadeva haha

go church...

den cell group meeting...nth much...

sharing haha...oso nth much i tink..

enquan talked abt the operations tingy..

den abt this oepration abt this guy wif penile cancer...

den all the guys were lyk OMG! OUCH!!!

haha so funny la..

den wah all da chim terms hahax...

bleh...carn b helped la..he doctor ma XD...

all the details XD

den sermon..lionel n aaron waz lyk...asking me sit there...

den lionel keep linking again -.-"

err suaning la ahh nvm -.-...

den later after sermon haha i go try drums...n yay i improved =D

den play guitar..play lonely..kena whacking by wq -.-"

den later lunch..i ps wq they all again -.-

go tango eat..den later they came...

den walk walk...go church there discuss abt watching movie...

den later everyone start going off haha..

dragging..

den zx went off...den i kena abit of suaning again -.-"

den later talked abit abt my condition la..

den they go movie...

i go home hahax..

2005-08-05T14:03:00.000+08:00

ahhhhhhhhhh

i duno wad to blog haha

bored lor haiz..

ahh last nite the same person appeared in my dream again >.<..

does it mean sth? guess not...

well i duno...

im going nuts hahax...

shall eat some nuts...

how bout some almonds?

hazelnuts r great too =D

2005-08-04T18:57:00.000+08:00

hhahax bored la..well laz nite weird dream

the same girl appeared in my dream again..

hmm wad does it mean?

o well my dream..

tt i waz a clone who escape from the cloning facility..

den kena jabbed..

den appear in some wweird world wif star wars characters hahax..

o well..

today mr lai came to my place >.<

juz nice my mom just go out den he came haha..

den talked abt some stuff well...later when he left...soon my mom came back -.-"

den whole day watching videos at the web site again haha so funny..

o well

nth much today

2005-08-04T00:27:00.000+08:00

okay blog..

now 12am

okay

boring la basically

meet some pro guitarists hahax..

wah anyway got back my guitar la..

not bad..

love the X2N hahax..

the EVO oso not bad..

got the tones i want hahax..

well...

parents finally psychoed to let me to hillsongs conference hahax..

den gona write zx yet another letter coz im bored -.-"

hahax o well..

>.<

2005-07-31T17:37:00.000+08:00

2day mroning go church hahax..

so tired..

hmm bible study...

den later zx pass me letter...

wif aaron they all..

den sermon..

dots..

able made our row move to the front...

after sermon den aaron go do couple of freeze hahax..

den mr lai go sit on him >.<

den later prayer requests...

den go lunch..actually wana go eat daohui wif wq they all..

decided join aaron instead hahax..

everyone eat wanton mee dots...

so many ppl XD..

den later go dota...

not bad la..

trash haoquan hahax..

den later play against other ppl..

ownage hahax...

den later go play pool bleh...

so fun hahax..

aaron n i somehow got in..

den came home

2005-07-30T21:49:00.000+08:00

ahhax well today borin again...

morning eat prorridge and rice..

throughout day play guitar...read harry potter

lazy go out hahax..

waz supposed to go out hahax..

well...later go bras basah..

bought the evo n x2n...plus 5 way switch hahax..

nid one week..bleh...

so long..

i will miss my guitar hahax..

the guy so nice give 30% off

lolx...den lemme try the K7 n UV guitars..

wah 7 stringers so heavy XD...

so expensive..

im droolnig wahahax..

too bad nvr play them on dirty channel...

canot test the powers of the humbuckers lolx >.<

2005-07-30T10:06:00.000+08:00

bleh...another morning..yesterday wad hapen?

i duno...u noe?

hahax...

o well...im sure now the entire skool noes wad happened..

well..i really do not noe wad to say...

itz juz really a big shock..

itz juz so sad haiz...

o well...but we must still pick ourselves up and continue walking =D

yea...

well..ytd stuck home..

play guitar lor...

hahax...

later going out to bras basah

gona buy guitar pick ups..

going for EVO/X2N combo or PAF JOE/X2N or PAF PRO/X2N

lolx...yea..shal lblog later

2005-07-29T00:11:00.000+08:00

yet another day...

morning see doctor...

keep asking me abt my thoughts lolx...

yea den continue wif chinese med firz see how...

den go bras basah...

buy harry potter book...

go swee lee buy guitar strap see pick ups..

considering x2n for bridge n evolution for neck.....

hmm...later at macs..wif my mom...

received some realli shocking news....haiz...

well...some things are just so sudden..

haiz...well......

den later came home yea...den nth much..

tml iz gona b yet another day...well...

2005-07-27T19:57:00.000+08:00

lalalallallallala...

hahax...so lazy blog recently...

busy playin guitar XD...

sunday nite had super weird dream..

shal nt comment on it...

wished i waz in it longer hahax

lolx..monday guitar lessons...

left my notes at my teacher's place -.-"

den yea ytd nth..

diz morning go heart scan..

wah lao inject radioactive ting into me..

hahax..

the box so cool..

yea

nth much la..

lately boring

2005-07-24T18:09:00.000+08:00

okay..

woke up...

change to tt hood shirt lolx

long sleeve...wana cover the crap tingy ma..

den hahax..

go church..pass zx n wq letters...

den later grow gathering...

hahax..tok abt some combine activity..

i crap alot la..

really alot..

being super lame..

hahax..house warming lolx...go house on the heater...

den go libraries....den wad escape theme park fall off the ride lolx

den later hahax..everyting food food

den i said sth super lame..everyone laugh lyk siao..bud 4got wad izit...'

aaron waz hahax..dots..den say zx wad open house close house hahax..

den later sharing..

enquan tok abt dissecting bodies lolx..

den later prayed

dots..

den later go up..i go toilet...

den go in for sermon..

ernest toking lolx

den aaron telling me tt he practiced it for the whole nite hahax...

den sermon..hahax..tok abt tinking positive..i tink..

den i realli agree on the itz normal to lyk sum1 at diz age ting...hahax..*winks to pw*

den later they tok abt the celebrate christmas in singapore ting hahax..

bleh...

den nth much..juz hung arnd..hahax apparently i cant play drums...

play guitar hahax...amos recognised tt i waz playin master of puppets -.-"

den later go lunch ok la..very cramp the table hahax

chat wif charlie while walkin to parklane mall

play dota...haha at firs they 3v3...

so i play cs..not bad ar i trash everyone...

hahax...den play dota...

ahh i too n00b i tink..

den later walk to ps there..walk back...go arcade play play...den go home hahax

2005-07-23T23:19:00.000+08:00

ahh boring day stay at home...

raphael came...

songs hahax..

den sms whole day..

den play guitar...

hahax ttz all

2005-07-22T18:57:00.000+08:00

2dae boring in e morning..play guitar..

finally can play master of puppets....

okay...den went out..meet steph n zx..

pass steph 5 dollars so she buy album

hahax...

den later they go shop shop...

i bo liao go walk walk...

go makan..coz hungry...

den go bookshop..

wq buy order of the phoenix..

den go stick sticker on my back n take pic -.-

i lyk e mini voodoo doll lolx

den saw e book by jasper sth sth..

haha nvr knew i wrote so many books XD

den meet pw...

den later realised wad they laughing at -.-"

they stuck the sticker on my back..

wq laugh lyk siao....embarassing herself

go buy tickets...treat wq half..

zx come demand 8 bucks -.-"

fine fine...

den buy drinks..

go in movie...

get ticket stubs...

den watch island..

not bad..

den wq n zx keep taking my ice lemon tea drink la -.-"

pretty scary sumtimes..

lolx

n wq waz lyk repeating e script...

lolx

"Jesus loves you!"

"Why is my insurance policy sitting on my ****king sofa?"

lolx dam funny la...

hahahhax...

den yea lidat lidat...

hahax..den went back la..

my dad drive me..

den toking abt cars lolx >.<

2005-07-22T09:48:00.000+08:00

bleh..ytd hmm....

spent whole morning figuring out how to use the effects processor -.-"

den later edwin n gang came -.-"

dots..

den go ct scan...

sian...

now got 2 more tumours...

stop radio...

gona see wad to do...

haiz...

den went out dinner wif mr chew miss leong n mss koh...

the shop name so funny..."whatever"

lolx...food nt bad..nice place...

tt place pretty interesting too...

hmm

den went home XD

2005-07-21T00:55:00.001+08:00

bleh..today iz pretty boring well..

den e party end up no one go except my family la lolx -.-"

den i went in rite...

notice sth weird hahax..hehs..some boxes ar...

den theres a band playing lolx..

so farnie one they all..bleh..

den later wan me play along -.-"

i shy la duno how to play hahax...

den later reveal the stuffs tt i wanted lolx

wah...

finally got the s520ex n gt8..plus the mg15cdr..

so cool hahax..

yea...

love those stuff manz...

hahax..

2005-07-21T00:55:00.000+08:00

2005-07-20T16:54:00.000+08:00

ever since i had diz disease....

i alwaes had doubts abt my own mortatlity...

bud nvm..ttz nt e point..

juz to some ppl out there...

i juz wish ur cod juz b more sensitive towards ppl's feelings..

b careful of ur words...

juz...

dont ever question my mortality

itz juz one simple desire i haf...

.........

2005-07-19T18:34:00.000+08:00

ahhax today boring basically...edwin n gang came..

later went down wif carissa walk walk fetch her bro..

now willy at my hse -.-"

2005-07-19T10:40:00.000+08:00

arghz.....

y m i feelin diz way...

itz reali worse den i expected it to be...

juz hope tt it goes away..

go away

go away...

>.<

ahhhhhhh....

2005-07-18T15:29:00.000+08:00

hehs..today nth much..morning got guitar lesson...

nth much la..boring basically...

dan dr yap called...

hehs..found out tt my afp dropped to 1700...

ttz gd lolx..so happy XD

2005-07-17T21:42:00.000+08:00

okay diz morning went church...bible study...

sat wif aaron n evynn...lolx...they crapping agian

later amos came -.-" wif his "amos" cap...

dots...

den yea later...saw charlie oso...

den later sermon...

aaron had my fone..keep taking pics of zx -.-"

den he n evynn did the disappearing fone video..

later did another one

lolx

dam dots...

downstairs...wq take my fone...accidentally dropped it..den freaked out -.-"

den later lunch at tango...

chicken noodles...

he come suan me again....

den later go buy fishbone hp strap lolx...

i buy red aaron buy pink lolx...

den go parklane mall..lolx..go aracade play..play jurassic park..everyone take turns lolx...

den i play rock fever -.-"

den go cybercafe...charlie n aaron playin..

den i go try guitar at a store lolx..

a les paul...wah sound dam good...

hahax...

wish i haf a les paul guitar...

den later go cyber cafe play...play halfway muz go -.-"
follow family to suntec..walk walk..

den go home lolx...

so tired XD

so paranoid

2005-07-16T21:43:00.000+08:00

okay today..morning went out..met wq in mrt...in mrt i said sth den she kick me..

den later at farrer park..walk walk walk....

at zx hse downstairs..they study...i bo liao shoot rubber band...

wq take my mp3...

i go 7 11 buy ice cream..den go lunch..den went back..

later steph came....

den zx mom n dad n bro waz arnd..

den zx mom ask who m i ma..

i say my name..den she waz lyk "o so itz you"

den im -.-"

den later go chinatown..walk walk..den walk back mrt...

den later at mrt...

den go up again..

met up wif enping n enquan..

went to watch the show..

not bad..

in chinese

sorta boring for awhile

last part pretty interesting..

den go ps...

they go neopritn...

i go arcarde...too many ppl...den go yamaha....

2 ppl playin there so nice lolx..

den lkkater go starbucks...den go home lolx

2005-07-15T13:03:00.000+08:00

okay bored la..morning went to malaysia

visit cousins..get sum stuff...

den lunch...

come home so tired

hahx shall blog abt ytd...

after radiotheraphy at home..go guitar lessons

learn new chords again...

i hate barre chords -.-"

i really really hate em....well power chords are an exception lolx

den go tp la..

go aracade play initial d..

duno the stupid jap text..end up playin wif the guy beside me whos a pro twice

den later go mac wif mom eat la...den go radiotheraphy...

last one for diz few weeks hahax...

finally can rest...

den at home chat lor..

lolx..calling wq weiqian-mon..den she callin me jasperina-mon -.-"

den blah blah blah...read her blog..abt sumbody...

well yea..itz reali nasty to bring ppl down wif words...

hmm..well i dun haf much to say la..coz i dun reali noe wad exactly happened..

bud well yea...

chat wif wq n juer....den they invite pw...pw keep leaving

apparently pw iz pissed over sth...

pw pissed = bad?...guess so

den sori la i dun pms -.-"

im not a girl -.-"

den later steph waz tellin me abt the noah ting ting ticket...

i waz lyk...wadda..nobody told me....

den gona sms enping...wen i finished the sms..

den wq sae they bought it liao...

den later steph tokin abt writing letters n wad color lors...

wq ask me tell my "boyfren" a.k.a mr sim to stop irritating her lolx

okay...den blar blar blar..4got wad hapen liao hahax....

wheeee XD

2005-07-14T20:04:00.000+08:00

yea today go radiotheraphy...

den later guitar lesson..

go tp arcade play...

go radio...

go blood test...

go eastpoint

go home...

lazy blog

hahahx =PpP

2005-07-12T18:21:00.000+08:00

0.2 degrees away frm a fever

im the human radiator...

radiating heat lyk siao

wah lao den cough flu...

this sucks...

2005-07-10T21:37:00.000+08:00

fine wq i blog la.,..

first of all...

science 101

weiqian soundwaves r destructive

weiqian saliva iz corrosive..

yea...ttz all for science 101 today...

hehs...morning woke up..

den went to church..went up...saw zx n wq n pw....

sat down...wonder where iz aaron...

nth much there...later go down cell group gathering...

toking abt bringing new frens...

den aaron suan me lyk siao lolx...

den psycho me lolx..

den aaron suan ppl oso la...

wif his fishy look lolx...

den pictionary dam dots la...

my turn i muz draw radiotheraphy lolx

drew dead guy wif radio beside lolx...

hahax...den later sermon....went to sit wif aaron lolx..den haoquan beside lolx

den hmm...after sermon...had prayer session...

den tok abt nxt sat outing...watch the noah's ark tingy...

so cool..i wana watch! hahax..

den went to parklane there makan...

den go cybercafe dota again lolx...

n00bs go top lane lolx...

hehs...ownage sia hehs...

lightning revenant song..

hahax..won firz game...

2nd game hahax bully celine -.-"...den lide waz lyk WTH

den aaron come whack me...stun me bud he die XD

lolx...won again...

den lide waz lyk toking abt wen he whack me my health regenerate so fast hahax...

den later wif aaron n ernest...lolx...

rain den run...

den go church..found wq pw n zx in duno wad room...

den lolx..take pics wadeva la XD....

got one sleepy ernest pic lolx

den later going movie hahax..

hahax...den the drinks part dam diao....ernest got one wif alot gas...

den went down tt stairs...den pull shuttle...den aaron n ernest made me limbo -.-"

walk to plaza sing...

ernest go home...

hahax..aaron n i wana get behind wq n zx lolx...play pranks la...

den there liao no tickets...

den go MRT...going tp lolx

den aaron n i do funny tings lolx...dat time zx got shocked n jumped dam farnie la...

den go there.....watch war of the worlds...

lolx..everyone buy lollipop...

den go in zx n wq waz lyk "go sit wif ur bf" -.-"

i tried to steal sum pop corn...keep getting whacked...

den bitten by weiqian -.-"

poor sleeve of mine

den throughout whole movie she n zx keep so close together...

den duno she go tell zx wad zx's husband...den say boyfren -.-" dots....

diao she oso pull my sleeve lyk duno wad...askin wa dgona hapen nxt -.-"

poor sleeve of mine T_T

hahax.,,.zx n wq keep freaking out lolx...

den the great singapore sale 100% off part dam farnie la..wq laugh lyk nuts hahax..

den later go down..

they go toilet...

aaron n i go arcade lolx..

i play drums again lolx..nearly complete the non stop la...

den wah all behind me lolx...

den later i done...

go down saw zx n wq go out of macs...

wah zx eat alot ar...two hamburgers lolx...

den go interchange...zx go liao...den i gtg..

at the road aaron waz lyk whining tt hes gona starve n i shod treat him...

den he say i so good leave him to starve....of coz im good =D

hehs...dan i call him lao po..den he waz lyk "look there n call"

den i waz lyk..nvr lor...if ttz the case i will b broke lolx...

dots...

den later go home..

lolx..

chat online lolx

dan yaba yaba...nth much liao lolx

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee

XD...

tml radiotheraphy again...twig gona come

2005-07-09T23:35:00.000+08:00

hahax..2dae nth much..went out wif sisters la..

wtch fantastic four lolx...

so i duno hahax..

den met aaron...walk walk...

go home hahax...

lazy blog la

2005-07-08T23:31:00.000+08:00

ok i blog abt 2dae

today did nth much

guitar lessons...

improve again hahax...

den chat online...

chung ee came later...

tok abt my condition

alot tings

he lend me book

later go jaslyn skool 4 open hse...

dots hahax..

tired...

came home...

slp

2005-07-08T23:00:00.000+08:00

im tired

2005-07-07T22:41:00.000+08:00

dots 2dae dam diao..

aaron call me at lyk duno wad ttime..ask me go out...

hahax..apparently he skip skl wif wq..

n wq went out in skool uniform -.-

hahax..den i canot go out lor...

my sis comb hair..comb stuck = die

den aaron say come my hse -.-"

ok la -.-

he wearing pink..so bright sumore -.-

hahax he reali lyk to bulli wq lolx...

both of them saw the stuff in my rm n waz lyk "u dam rich la" -.-"

den ya lor...took pics of him lolx...

den wq took sum of my sis books to read...

den lying on my bed -.-"

dots...

den aaron play san andreas...den play dota XD..

hahax..later force wq to wear aaron cap hahax..

den took pic -.-"

yea she cover her face...

den got pooh inside lolx...

dots....she really lie on my bed lyk dots....

den she keep whining tt shes bored...

den she login msn on her com...

aaron n i try to figure out her pw lolx...

den aaron on msn tok to me..

i tot he in ernest acc..den waz lyk..omg who is in aaron's account -.-"

dots...

den later play xbox wif aaron lolx..

den willy drop by take sth hahax...

den nth much hahax...

den later go radiotheraphy...

so dots..the giant door spoil..

so use all those ting block radiation...look lyk warzone -.-"

hahax...

den saw doctor quah to find out blood test results...

hahax the afp went down hahax..

means radiotheraphy working hahax..

Praise The Lord!

hmm...den later came home hahax...

steph sms me duno abt pris lyking ah gongs n ah mas -.-'

dots..den hahax yea muz take side wif wq -.-"

hahax qianqian..dots...qianmei....weimei

lolx..dots....

6 hours later..my sis hair still stuck...no choice den cut dots..

hahax...diao..

nth much liao hahax..

tml morning guitar lesson again lolx

i tink recently wq hang out too much wif aaron..she starts whining...

den aaron let her bring his cap home...

so tt ting muz b true hahax..

bud still..im on her side lolxx....dots...

2005-07-06T22:57:00.000+08:00

hahax today radiotheraphy sian....

after go meet pei wei...den meet steph sheila qianqian n juer...

den later aaron come..

den pris walk past macs...sheila n qianqian run out..screaming...

den all come in..i kena whacked...

walk wif aaron..go arcade...

see ppl play...sian...go mos..eat..tok crap

concluded aaron lyks wq

go home...

hahax lazy blog

2005-07-05T21:00:00.000+08:00

blehs..today radiotheraphy hahax..nth much la..

shall blog abt ytd...

morning after radiotheraphy....

went to meet aaron..den go bugis meet up wif the rest of the ppl hahax alot XD

all play in cybercafe...

den i went arcade play hahax...

wah so many ppl so pro on the drums one...

diao..

den go watch war of the worlds at 1.45pm

dam gross sia the movie hahax

bud dun undersstand the ending lolx

den yea..later go radiotheraphy again...

den go bishan meet aaron SIM...another aaron yes...

den hahax miss movie..so went to upper thomson meet wq...

den lolx we were toking abt killing wq...

making us travel so far..

den later hahax found out who wq lyks..

den yea nth much lor

later went back bishan hahax..

den yea go home

2005-07-03T23:39:00.000+08:00

blehs..diz morning went to church..juz rite on time hahax...

my dad so draggy la XD....

den went up to 5th floor...see nobody...

den go call aaron ask where iz everyone...

den happens tt they r on 5th floor oso...bud all hiding in one corner XD...

yea bible study...

at firz read i blur blur..

later den understand...

bleh..diz time pretty quiet...nobody answer questions...

lyk all dun dare....lolx...too shy XD....

den later everyone go eat...den well for me..

said the sinner's prayer wif pastor lai n pw...

yupx....den he explained sth in the bible....

yea....den later sermon lolxx...

go sit wif aaron behind wq...

den aaron keep irritating wq lolx

hahax yea...den lata pastor lai announce tt i accepted Christ...

den yea..well applause...den later aaron go shake my hand...

more lyk come grip my hand -.-"...dotx....dam dots...

den yea...later prayer session.....

yup everybody tok abt their week..

den later found out im in the praise team XD

wad a surprise >.<...

later went for lunch wif aaron n others...

den alamak...end up spending more then wq on lunch -.-"

hahax toking abt pokenator....ernest go call weiqian pokemon lolx

den later he went "wei qian mon! i choose you!"

dam diao hahax...

den we depict pw attacking wq mon...

den she use kick n scream attack hahx....

den later wq go sit away from us...

hahax...den others were lyk saying the four of us (me aaron ernest issac)

bully her lolx....

den ernest went to sit right beside her...

he said "no nid the rest of them la i one person enuff to bully wq liao"

hahax dam funny lors...

nvm...den later went to parklane mall wif aaron n guys play dota...

dots im dam n00b...

bud fun la hahax...

den celine dam pro la -.-"

hahax..later went plaza sing walk walk...go arcade...

wah the ppl play drums so pro...4get it...den went down...

saw andrew n other npcc guys hahax...

so qiao...

dots...

den came home lors hahax...

den nth much...

juz play guitar only hahax XD

den yea so so la hahax XD
nth much..tml gona watch war of the worlds wif aaron LOO (not sim) n others hahax

so cool...cant wait

2005-07-01T22:38:00.000+08:00

ahahx....tings cant get anymore cooler den diz

they r gona grant my wish...

gona get my new guitar n stuffs =D

n i will get to gig woohoo..

bud i dun haf confidence -.-"

dots...

morning went for radio...hahax...den go skool

walk arnd check out stuff..

so cool....

the best wazs the concert in the music rm...

yea mr kwok even dedicated a song to me >.<

itz so cool..the teachers singing..band playin..

hahax yea...>.<

lyk nth much hahax,...

dun reali feel lyk bloggin nowades XD

2005-06-30T22:03:00.000+08:00

okay..diz morning had radiotheraphy...dam fast lor hahaxXD

dan later go plaza sing wana watch war of the worlds...bud missed it..dam la...

den go arcade plae hahax...spent 7 dollars on drummania...

hahax im gettin better XD...

hahax...den play guitar now lor..hehes....

found alot of songs to plae diz time hahax..

yea lidat la hahax....

duno...well hope diz radiotheraphy works for me....

really scared >.<

2005-06-28T22:44:00.000+08:00

hahax...2dae dropped by in skool hahax..well..

walked arnd...

hahax saw so many other marists...

so long nvr see...

den zhao duan n simeon see me dam happi la hahax...

go hug me XD

den zhao duan waz lyk dun die hor dun die hor hahax

hahax...den pass mc to mrs koh...

hahax saw mr koh tokin to the sec4 councillors hahax..

en told him abt my condition la...

den sae go radiotheraphy....

he waz lyk wad radio station ar...

so lame n diao hahax...>.<

wah everyone go see bro. anthony's dog lolx diao...

den tok to mrs koh hahax...say muz b positive all diz lolx..>.<

lolx keep saying i dun look as cheerful as laz time..

bud i m cheerful -.-" hahax...

den later attend POP hahax...

so surprised i still can do footdrill n stand in parade hahax.,,

later everyone tok crap la

i went to call matthew qing ai de...den he come n sae tao yan! in gay voice lolx

super funny la....

yea earlier shamus oso come callme lao gong -.-"

o man diz iz gay

den later yam seng...

den all the meetings -.-

muz type out minutes sumore XD

hahax..

went home

play guitar...

record hahax..

>.<

2005-06-27T23:35:00.000+08:00

lazy to blog hahax

2005-06-27T09:34:00.000+08:00

hahax....lets blog abt ytd firz >.<....later still got guitar lesson >.<

morning went to church....

den im late -.-"

going up the stairs saw pastor lai...he waz lyk he tried to call me a few times alwaes canot get thru >.<

okay my fone iz seriously siao...

okay..den later everyone went down for the walk..

n mi n sum1 whos name i do not noe in the cell grp went into the conference room -.-"

den saw em downstairs we go chiong down....

we had this walking ting?

den all the while walking wif aaron n someone n lionel...

talk talk...den lagging behind lolx...

den blah blah blah blah hahax...walk walk walk walk

den went back up...

took a bubblegum 4got from who lolx..cod nt blow....too little bubblegum liao -.-

den ate curry puff...

i ate lyk 3/4 wen pw ate 3 -.-"

o man he eats alot huh....

den later went in for sermon...

i waz between aaron n pei wei...

wq n zx waz behind....apparently wq whacked my cap i tink -.-"

den zx keep passing us skittles -.-"

den aaron n wq waz passing msg thru their mobile -.-"

dots....

den sermon end..pastor lai talked to me abt sth..

den suddenly lyk pw n zx oso listening >.<

den later meeting..usual tings...den go lunch....

duno lyk keep walkin walkin duno where to eat lidat hahax...walking back n forth...

den talked to diz guy called ben i tink

he hapens to haf graduated from maris stella laz yr...

woah such a coincidence lolx....

den go eat...

ate porridge...

den aaron waz lyk wan me to sit behind him which iz oso in front of zx...

he said he got sth to ask me -.-"

bud i ignored him...

den later sum1 whos name i do not noe (again bud diff person diz time round)

sae i look scary wen i look down wif my cap...

den ate liao..walked to plaza sing wif ben...

he went off...

i go there wait for xiao cheng...slack arnd plaza sing..

decide go buy tickets...

so qiao met up wif lionel..dots...watching same movie (initial d) sumore...

diaowee..

den saw aaron ernest amos...n a few more whose names i duno (again)

den went into arcade n play....hahax..the drums game dam addictive..

played it lyk duno how many times..at least keep improving hahax..

den plae alot crazy games lolx...

den there waz diz join blocks ting..

den keep on nearly winning the major prize la...

alwaes laz one miss...

muz b sth rong wif the machine...

hahax..met xiao cheng...

later buy drinks n stuffs....went into movie...

wah sit front row...

wana die liao hahax...

den watched liao....

watched liao..den nth much all go home lolx....

bleh..going off liaos hahx..XD

2005-06-24T19:08:00.000+08:00

hahax gona blog abt ytd n today....

well ytd went to watch initial d wif carmen n willy...

den farnie lolx >.<....

den later met pris n zx..

den kena whacked...get bubble gum

hahax...den went to davis wif willly to buy his guitar...

den went over to bras basah swee lee...

tried the s520ex...hahax dam song.,..

den nth much...

2dae go ct scan poke so many times dam pain

hahx...den morning got scout meeting discuss ad hoc commitee lolx...

kinda bz so short post lolx

2005-06-22T19:55:00.000+08:00

haiz today chemo so so la...

den heard my afp shot up to 2000 -.-

den doc sae drug not workin well..

if diz cant work there arent really any other options left...

so well...ask mi go see chinese physician..

den yea..haiz...den gona take my tumour for lab test..

well....yea...see him..he sae can cure la....diao...

...yea haiz...veri scared....

2005-06-20T22:47:00.000+08:00

hahax well nth much recently...

satuday went to funan....den bought empire earth 2 hahax...

veri addictive...lyk to bully computer hahax...

start at synthetic age n use nuclear bomber against stone age ppl hahax

so funny hahax...den tt nite went for dinner...

den sunday went to taka...den walk walk...sms la hahax...

so farnie..the toy bread tt squeaks...

den ate....den go konikuniya...

bought the nirvana guitar score book hahax..

bleh...den go home watch rush hour two..

den 2dae nth much juz stuck at home hahax..diao

nth blog la...

im siao abt guitars now hahax...

2005-06-17T20:16:00.000+08:00

hahax..diz morning guitar lesson not bad...

learnt new chords n pentatonic scale....

hahax...i learn pretty fast lolx..im gettin good lolx

hahax...den at home juz slack arnd...

den sorta late wen going to meet raphael at plaza sing

hahax...watch batman begins

not bad la the movie hahax...

better den i expected =P

nowadaes movies not so gd liao la hahax...

den go walk walk arnd...

go arcade plae plae...

den raphael gtg hahax..

den i wait for dad...he so slow la..

den go yamaha shop..hahax..wah the folk guitars 500 plus...

so ex la wah lao hahax...

diaoweee..

den dad fetch mi home...

msg ppl...tok crap hahax..

diaoweee...

so sianz...

pw wq n zx go 4 days camp wah

gona miss em lolx.....

XD

2005-06-16T23:15:00.000+08:00

hahax today borin day again..

well..whole day chat online...lolx...

chat wif sheila...den duno abt wad aaron psyhcoing us la...

dots...

den i create the zexin you xin ting lolx so diao....

den ya la chat whole day..

chat here chat there...

den plae sissyfighters....dam stupid n weird game hahax

den nth much lor...

dam sian at home lolx..

den chat...raphael tt pw from smss -.-"

den later go sum reanactment conducted by steph -.-"

den tml gona go movie wif raphael..

haiz..actually wanted go sentosa...

well..tings juz dint seem to work out...

haiz...

i duno...

dun wana tink abt it...

canot stress...eurghz...

i duno...

i juz seem to b giving myself so much stress abt the state im in..

i juz wana get well...

n nth more....

sumtimes i tink y muz i go thru sth lyk diz...

izit reali fated?..

iz there sth to look forward to at the end of my sufferings?

well i will nvr noe...

guess only time will tell....

2005-06-15T23:18:00.001+08:00

2dae another day hahas...

not so sian..

morning edwin nvr come again..juz lyk yesterdae..

waz pretty pissed la haiz...

den juz plae pool wif sheila lolx...

den see her play wif steph hahax...

den later went out wif mom n sis hahax..

wore my new jeans...

den my mom waz lyk commenting on how much better i look..

coz i alwaes wear pants baggy hahax...

bud my legs look THIN lyk they r gona BREAK!!!

hahax...den took bus mrt....

city hall...den walk..to marina square...had prorridge at the food court

sis had chicken rice...

hahax...den walk to suntec....

den saw n walked past pris n her fren..

apparantly she nvr see mi lolx

den shop shop..bought new cap...

dan met up wif dad...

den went tower records bought coldplay - x&y lolx

the album iz nice hahax...

den later walk past pris again lolx...

smsing her..

den she waz lyk "CAN U JUZ APPEAR?"

okay den i appeared -.-"

she whacked my cap again -.-"

den later follow dad..mom had haircut...look diao...

den go eat roti prata...

den go serangoon see chinese physician...

nth much said..

mom consult him coz of her hands...

nth much..

den came home lolx

den smsing still...den pris wanted mi plan friday trip-.-"

o well...hahax...i tink shod b enuff ppl for fridae hahax...

diao..o well lets juz see how tings go..

hopefully friday trip will work out well

2005-06-15T23:18:00.000+08:00

2005-06-14T22:06:00.000+08:00

hahax...juz now the two ladies from the wish foundation tingy cam lolx

den tok abit abit...

den tok to mi abt my favourite stuffs la

den wish hahax....

wish for guitar den fx board...amp hahax...

back up wishes include laptop....or electronic drumset....or being deejay hahax...

diao...den chat chat....hahax...

yea..

nth much la...lazy type oso hahax...

now chattin lor...

tml gona rot at home again -.-"

well...wen i found tt it waz reali hard for mi to make a wish for sth i want

i realised how much i waz satisfied wif wad i alreadi haf lolx

yea...hahax....

2005-06-14T18:06:00.000+08:00

hahax diz morning juz chat as usual....

den play pool wif myself hahax

boost my ratings...

plae pool wif pw sheila n sean lolx

so dots...

den sister keep playin runescape we all kena d/c

wah lao

hahax..den chat whole day lor

rot at home -.-"

hahax nth much today la hahax...

later wish foundation ppl coming....

wheeeeeeeeee

hahax XD....wheeeeeeee....

wheeeeeeeee

2005-06-13T21:35:00.000+08:00

hahax..diz morning had guitar lessons wif mr chow...

lolx..hes a reali nice guy hahax...

yea learn guitar...learn basics...

had problem wif sum chords though lolx...

the wrong fingering hahax...

den he corrected alot of my techniques....

den toked alot as well...

lolx hes a great teacher hahax...

well today stayed at home to rot...

hahax..den plae maplestroy..well yea...den wq keep screaming at mushrooms -.-"

den plae sissyfight hahx....so dots...

den tok tok tok...

den later chat whole day la..on fone n msn

den later zhong lin ask mi cal the sec1 scout -.-"...

coz the scout alwaes mumble one....

yea he mumbles -.-"

den ya la...tml wana go library....wanybody wana go?

2005-06-12T18:49:00.000+08:00

hahax diz morning woke up....

tired...

showered...simple breakfast...changed...

SAT ON my dads CAR...wahahhax sound so diao...

dropped mi near church...went off...

saw sean lolx...den saw aaron...lolx..den walk walk..

to meet wq..nearly walk rong direction..lucki she came lolx...

den went up...sat down...diam diam

hahax...den aaron sitting at the other side starin at mi..den sms mi -.-"

he dam rich la

den i ask him come over -.-"...he sae leg pain..diao

stupid aaron hahax...keep askin mi tings...

den sean go use zx fone msg mi la diao hahax....

den wq go msg back -.-"...dan later..bible study...

hahax..at firz i read dun understand a ting...

den all the questions no1 answer -.-"...

diao...den the pastor carn rmb my name...he waz lyk wads ur name?

den pei wei go n sae jasmine -.-"....he kena whack hahax...

den tok abt sinning all diz..

den aaron keep sleeping -.-"...

den later eat you tiao -.-"

den charlie came lolx...den had a chat wif him dots hahax...

he went lyk wad i branded frm head to toe -.-"

den sae my fone cool -.-"

hahax...

den later service....

dan in chinese...bud i understood abit anyway...

dan funny parts i oso laugh -.-"...

dan wq waz lyk "pzz ur not spose to noe chinese"

diao -.-"...

im a chinese la....

den later they go briefing...mi wif pw..played arnd wif the drums...

den later went down wait for wq...

talked to sean...

he pointed out wq's sis...

who looks realy lyk her -.-"...

den later met charlie aaron all again...

dey gona plae dota hahax...

den gona lunch...yea

den trade numbers..

den later wq came down....went to sim lim there makan...

lolx diz time buy chicken rice so sum1 wun sae i rich hahax..

den i eat faster dan her!!! YAY!!!

hahax den went back churhc...wait for sheila coz her camp finish

den she appeared...she look erm duno

itz juz how one wod look wen one returns from a camp...

especially a ug camp....

hahax...diao....

den wait dam long for dad fetch mi la...

den sms wq....

den go to paragon...

den bought quiksilver clothes...

den bought levis jeans...

diao...

total figure =

SGD 430.20

now tok abt a shopping spree -.-"

den go eat...dots...supermarket sian

hahax..den go home wheeeeeeeeeee....

2005-06-11T17:07:00.000+08:00

hahax..wah last nite cod not slp coz nt feelin well....

so woke up n ate yohgurt...den chat on msn wif aaron n weiqian..

well b4 tt aaron waz sending mi crap pictures which i shall not sae wad they are...

den yea...chat chat...den conference -.-" diao...i waz lyk repeating wad aaron waz saying hahax

so diao...den his voice lyk super deep..hahax...

dan later he put down...den tok to wq for lyk one hour plus? diao....

we talked alot of crap -.-" yes yes hahax...

den hung up at nearly four hahax..

den woke up later at 8....

ate porridge....showered...changed....

willy came my hse...dan return mi cds n borrowed more hahax...

den later we went to tp to meet lucien...so diao hahax...

den bought the ticckets....den we were lyk..how much waz the ticket?

coz had prob splitting the money hahax...

wah 9.50 gone -.-"

den later go arcade...again i forked in 5 dollars hahax...

played daytona racing..i lost to lucien coz my car went out of control...

den i won willy hahax...i overtook him sumore..so diao..

den play time crisis 3 hahax....wif one credit i nearly completed the whole stage 1

while lucien waz gone halfway thru lolx..

man im getting betta at this game...hahax...

den we went up to the theatre...bought drinks...n yes willy owes mi 2.50 hahax...

den watch mr n mrs smith....the movie is dam lame -.-"

i lyk e 5 or 6 yrs part hahax...

itz juz so action packed la the movie hahax....

dan went out...willy took seperate path...

talked to lucien abt throwing knives hahax...diao...

walk to popular...

den lucien canot find the assesment papers his mom wanted him to get....

so tokin abt his mom gona screw him over the fone -.-"

well which did not hapen hahax...

den went to kfc....bought diz 8.45 meal...hahax..

we saved alot lidat....hahax...

den i ate the least -.-"

lucien eats ALOT n i mean it by ALOT!

hahax...den walked arnd...we were tokin abt knives...

den talked about importing katanas....

den talked abt military weapons...hahax...

lucien so clever in diz kinda stuff hahax..

so now i finally noe the difference between the m16 n m4a1 wow...

hahax...den walk round n round...den back to interchange...den took bus home lolx...

den now slacking again -.-"

another day gone...

tml another day...

monday morning iz gona b my firz guitar lesson hahax....

finally im gona progress...hahax..

2005-06-10T21:23:00.000+08:00

2dae so sian...

stuck at home nth do...

tml gona watch mr n mrs smith...hahax...yea....

so ya la lidat...hahax...

so bored at home

so bored at home

2005-06-09T21:36:00.000+08:00

actually...nth to blog today lolx

juz not feelin well..

2005-06-08T23:35:00.000+08:00

hahax...2dae nth much..lolx..chat wif pw whole day..

den plae pool....den later afternoon wq sms mi...

den hahax..juz chat chat...

den pw trash mi in pool lolx..

den later in the day go out see chinese physician..

den he read my palm...im determined and sucessful bud stubborn

hahax..den go go go...den conference wif steph they all...

den now tokin to wq on fone..

hahax..wana slp XD...

2005-06-07T21:30:00.000+08:00

hahax diz morning go chemo la hahax...

wear long sleeve...

den giving injection i puked -.-"..

hahax the 30 min waz so sian...

den later go lunch...

go home take medicine..

den "fly" to kovan

in my dads car-cum-plane

lolx im mad....

den i reach eeryone there...saw pris walking towards em

diao....she waz tokin abt mi den i appear behind hahhahax...

den lata walk..juer got sweets..i want 1 too! XD

den walk arnd heartland mall wait for nigel...hahax...

hahax..den saw pw frens...they ask "which one ur girl?"

den go sae i his gf -.-" diaoz....

den go up...see alot shops....den my hand kena used by pris -.-"

den tt toy shop alot funny ttings..got this elmo toy dam cute la hahax...

den they keep calling mi jasmine as usual -.-"...

den nigel came...

juer kena suaned...den i kena hit alot times

den go bowl.....

today i sucked at bowling hahax..duno y..muz b distracted ba...

den steph canot bowl lolx..as i expected...

den all 0 hahax..diao...den juer psycho the ball again lolx

den wq smsing mi....hahax den tired of bowling go aracde..plae time crisis 3

treated steph one game -.-" she dam lousy la..wasted hahax...

den borrow juer card pale the remix tingy....so hard hahax...

coz i duno how to plae -.-"...

den plae sum weird game..screen so big...bad guy pop up = juer scream lolx

hahax den went j8 ...on the train dam diao la...

den b4 tt juer n pris hitting my hat -.-

den sheila took my glasses..den they keep hittin mi cap....

den juer n steph step on my BEAUTIFUL shoe la hahax...

juer n pris sit one corner sheila n steph sit one corner den mi n pw sit one corner wahahhax...

den pris pass mi a pig from thailand -.-"

den go go go....up n down...den buy tings eat..den left mi n pw alone lolx

den wanted go popular...bud zx dad there lolx..den go buy hp covers...

pw sponser mi 2 dollar =D...so happi

transparent fone now

den i bought interlocked wristband...hahax..so ex

dfen my dad fetch mi..i sms wq...

den adad on line wif this social worker...

tell mi abt wish foundation lolx...

hahax i noe wad to wish for *grins*

hahahhahax...

den come home..chat online la lolx

den nth much le hahax....

yea...read read read juer read =P

2005-06-07T04:34:00.000+08:00

hahax changed my blog layout again...now itz abt frens?

hahax..love the layout...kinda little space ofr my tag board..

nvm lolx...love the music...hahax..

....well sumtimes i just tink i haf the best frens tt i cod ever haf in this world

all of you reali supported mi throughout my battle against cancer

ur haf showed so much cared n concern to mi...

i rmb the days wen sum of ur helped mi..suffered wif mi..cried wif mi..being happi wif me...being sad wif mi..just..being wif mi..

i oso rmb those days wen sum of u often picked on me..bulli mi..despice mi...

i juz wana thank all of you frm deep within my heart...

no matter u joined mi in this journey from the beginning or midway thru...

all of u r the best...

u all rock my world

ur haf touched mi so deeply...

i nvr wana lose u ppl

i nvr wana lose u ppl...

this is a song i haf in my mind right now...

Seasons In The Sun

Goodbye to you, my trusted friend
We've known each other since we were nine or ten
Together we climbed hills and trees
Learned of love and ABC's
Skinned our hearts and skinned our knees

Goodbye my friend, it's hard to die
When all the birds are singing in the sky
Now that the spring is in the air
Pretty girls are everywhere
Think of me and I’ll be there

We had joy, we had fun, we had seasons in the sun
But the hills that we climbed were just seasons out of time

Goodbye Papa, please pray for me
I was the black sheep of the family
You tried to teach me right from wrong
Too much wine and too much song
Wonder how I got along

Goodbye Papa, it's hard to die
When all the bird's are singing in the sky
Now that the spring is in the air
Little children everywhere
When you see them I'll be there

We had joy, we had fun, we had seasons in the sun
But the wine and the song like the seasons have all gone

We had joy, we had fun, we had seasons in the sun
But the wine and the song like the seasons have all gone

Goodbye Michelle, my little one
You gave me love and helped me find the sun
And every time when I was down
You would always come around
And get my feet back on the ground

Goodbye Michelle, it's hard to die
When all the birds are singing in the sky
Now that the spring is in the air
With the flowers everywhere
I wish that we could both be there

We had joy, we had fun, we had seasons in the sun
But the hills that we climbed were just seasons out of time

We had joy, we had fun, we had seasons in the sun
But the wine and the song like the seasons have all gone

We had joy, we had fun, we had seasons in the sun
But the wine and the song like the seasons have all gone

We had joy, we had fun, we had seasons in the sun
But the wine and the song like the seasons have all gone

2005-06-06T20:38:00.000+08:00

haiz i feel so crappy....

y cant i see myself as an ordinary person?

just because i have been struck by cancer?

i juz seem to tink that i canot lead a normal life...

because i haf cancer

how long will this torture last?

will it ever end?

how long can i tolerate it?

will i not be able to take it n juz break down?

sumbody plz enlighten mi....plz....

2005-06-06T20:00:00.000+08:00

feelin crappy....

hahax diz morning rush out meet andrew...go his hse...den go plaza sing..

plae in arcade lolx...time crisis 3...den tekken 4 i beat him hahax

den play racing my car gt prob one..dam slow -.-"

hahax..den watch madagascar...buy tickets...

den wah lao must see xavier..haiz sian la...

den sae wad i wear expensive clothes -.-"...

haiz..watch madagascar hahax dam funny....

den go x squre wif andrew plae doa ultimate n forza motorsport hahax...

plae forza so hard control...

hahax den doa ultimate i trash andrew la hahax....

hahax...den later go...met wq n charlie lolx...

he hugged mi -.-"...hes a cool guy la lolx...

den later go back to kovan..den my dad fetch mi home lolx..

2005-06-06T00:00:00.000+08:00

hahax..now gt sum retarded show on tv..

well today mom n dad brought mi out...sisters went to watch madagascar..

den see chinese physician...den go parkway....nth much..

juz change my mobile plan....

den everywhere still canot find a copy of nirvana : with the lights out

den go go giant...den go go united square....

bought it hahax...

den ya go home...

aiya in hurry la....

sum1 wan mi read her blog -.-"

2005-06-05T10:16:00.000+08:00

----yesterday----

haax...tink im gettin used to this song writing ting after all...

hahax...still can b improved i tink...hahax..leave it to pei wei to figure out the rhythm...im so mean hahax...

yea whole dae at home wif my guitar...chattin....hahax...chat chat chat...

alot crazy stuffs hapen lolx..watched tt piano video...dam farnie lolx...

hahhahaax diaoz...dan andrew called my hse fone instead of hp..amazing...

hahax..crap on the fone...we're lyk super lame la hahax..

yea mi n andrew r super lamers hahax..

crap n crap..okay..tok abt going to the PC show at expo on monday la..okay okay..

so guess im going his hse in the morning first hahax...

den crap n crap....

crap n crap.....

on msn oso crap n crap...

den steph n wq tryin to psycho mi n pw to become girls la...so lame...

n i nearly gave up lors >.<

wahahaax...diao...

----today-----

hahax okay..later parents gona bring mi to see physician....

so now im pretty stuck at home yea lolx....

hee hee i wana buy Nirvana: With The Lights Out!!!!

itz lyk 90 dollars la....

hee...

im crazy abt nirvana